A WALK WITH GOD

I need to set the stage first for a better understanding.

In January of 1999, My then wife came to me and said she was leaving me the first of February. She had left several times and always came back. This time, I told her I thought that was a very good idea and that there would be no returning this time. I had been suffering the effects of PTSD and at the same time going through therapy to recover from a work related back injury. I had put her through college for nurses training and she was making good money. My oldest son was married at the time so we had just two children at home. She elected to take the older of the two since he was not disabled and would not be a burden on her social life. So here I am, unable to work and having to raise a developmentally disabled son. My military pension at the time was just $1200.00 per month. This was the exact amount I was paying in rent. I bought a small motor home and moved out of the house. The property owner asked me to stay on the property to watch over it with free use of electricity and water. On this property was a small man made lake. I would go out there and sit on the bank at night crying out to the lord. Asking for guidance and relief from the weight of my cross. I felt like I should die but knew I could not because I had to raise my son. This went on for several months. One day, quite accidentally, I met a woman online. We hit it off right away. She later told me that she had relatives in my area and would be coming there for a visit and that we would meet at that time. In June 2000, it became reality. She was such a Beautiful woman. An Angel. I fell in love with her immediately. We even discussed marriage but first there were things to clean up in our personal lives. My disabled son was having problems and needed a lot of attention. My Angel took me by the hand and led me to her Aunt and Uncle who were teaching a Bible study class. I was accepted into the group. I felt like I finally belonged somewhere and felt joy in learning more about the lord. My Angel left to go back home to prepare a move to where I was. I began to do a lot of praying.
Then one Sunday evening during Bible study class. the teacher was reading something to us and everything went totally dark around me. I could still hear the teachers voice but it was becoming fainter and then it was gone. I know not where I was at but it seemed as though I was standing in a cave in total darkness. As dark as I have ever seen. I wondered where I was and what was happening but I was relaxed and not afraid. In fact I felt really at peace. Then before me came this glow of light. It looked like a giant boulder with a top slanted like a podium. On this was a giant tablet with writing on it. The boulder like burning charcoal. there was the dark areas, the gray ash and the red glow of hot burning coal. I began to read, or so I thought, from the tablet. It was explaining all that had been happening to me over the past year. It told of how I was so distraught and crying out for help that I could not see that the lord was answering my prayers. He then sent out his Angel to lead me to help. So she really is an Angel. Every day I live, I know more and more that she is. We never married but we are good friend. I felt at peace after these revelations. I was returned to my seat in Bible study and no one had realized that I had been gone. My life was greatly chanmged after that.

Robertb